Some of us don't sweat the small stuff and it's all small stuff, right? I know, I know you're tough and resilient and bigger than Superman, but what if you're not??
What if you're born sensitive, or maybe become sensitive through exposure to trauma, or maybe as you've gotten older its just the way you've developed as a human being. Maybe, you don't have a choice about not being sensitive, not really. Trying not to be sensitive because you are sensitive and you're responding to the stigma that surrounds emotions, creativity and validating an internal world, will drive you around the twist.
I came across something the other day which stopped me in my tracks, 'Worry as a form of Love,' I can't say exactly where I saw it, I did not come up with it. But I did think, I've got this one badly.
Worrying about others as a form of love, is a way of displaying the love that we may not feel safe enough to share openly. At least in my case. I can remember my Omy (grandmother) worrying about me wearing sunscreen, and that meant she cared. She loved me as she rubbed that oily stuff into my hair, my eyes, everywhere...She never actually said the words but I knew! Or she would make a very sweet rich cake, and we knew she loved us!
I'm now more careful about worrying as a form of love, I know I've called friends out of the blue and told them I was worried about them. The most common gift I give people seems to be some sort of protective crystal or talisman, to show my concern for their welfare because that means I love them. Or I could just love them and stop hiding behind concern. Couldn't I? Mmmm....something to think about :)
Worrying as a form of love, increases anxiety levels, and distances me from others by playing 'the fixer'. (What makes me think I have any answers?) It would be quite the journey of becoming more vulnerable with my friends and family to go from worry to love, and some days I fall back into old habits. Being more vulnerable is scary....But this year feels like the right time to become gentler and kinder, and more giving and caring more than ever.
I just wanted to let everyone know about our next Term of classes, as Term 1 finishes on Saturday March 6th 2021, and there is a 2 week break, then classes will be back at 10am on Monday 22nd Of March for 8weeks.
Classes are by donation here https://www.patreon.com/kylamindfulyoga
Monday 10am - https://us02web.zoom.us/j/76319487461
Wed 10am - https://www.facebook.com/Kylamindfulyoga
Sat 10am - https://us02web.zoom.us/j/76319487461
Sunday every 2nd week from 28th March, 2021 https://us02web.zoom.us/j/89366147822
Every level welcome!
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